This years love.

29/June/2012


Just arrived in Chicago at my cousins stunning high rise apartment with a breathtaking view of the city.
David Gray is serenating me throughout the room...'this years love'....

As I sit here and completely admire everything that is happening around me and within me.
Rain drops beautifully splash against the window and I can see them every so delicately landing in the lake beside me...down 51 flights. Lightening cracks throughout the sky...thunder rumbles through me and around the pretty city of Chicago.


I feel like I have been granted, blessed and enlightened a special experience throughout my life....not only in this moment, but definitely in the last few years...and more recently in the last few months.
I have been introduced to one of those most amazing men I have ever come encounter with.
He is a very special soul...with a huge, proud heart with so much love to offer and share.
Not only have I had the moment to love and be loved by him...but also his two precious, incredible children...who are both so bright shining lights and bring so much life and excitement and creativity to everything.

Everything just works out...it's as if the stars are aligned...and our hearts just mesh together so perfectly...no question about it...
We just fit together. A stellar team....stellar A team. ;)

I am the healthiest I've ever been. In every aspect of my life. I'm happy...ohh SO happy. I'm doing what I love and I'm so passionate about...educating, making a difference in the lives of others, exercising....I am laughing on a daily basis more than I ever thought would be possible.

I'm smiling. I'm content. I'm in love. I'm enjoying what's around me...appreciating what I have been blessed with in my life. Taking a minute to stop and enjoy the beauty around me...enjoying sharing experiences with someone I truly love and care about and trust the feeling is mutual.

The BEST is yet to come.

Reaching for your dreams is not an easy thing to do. When you dream...and think outside of the box, outside of your comfort zone, of course not everyone is going to hop on the bandwagon and want you to just fly away into the unknown. I am experiencing this with my current choices in my life...things that make ME happy...they make me happy and I am not intentionally hurting others nor am I hurting myself. I know I need to do what's best for me and my happiness. I do know...there is a small handful of people who will see through all of that and trust your heart and be there with you through all of the commotion and all of the barriers you must break through to achieve these beautiful dreams of yours. Also, sometimes the people who do disagree with you and your choices in life are people who do care about you and think they are doing this to protect you...but in all honesty I think they are trying to shield you from the fears that they have with my choices. Regardless...every little thing will be all right.

Life is about working through the problems...falling off the horse only to brush everything off and all while keeping a smile when it hurts the most and seeing the light and beauty in it all.
Storm before the calm?

The best is yet to come. 2012

Sometimes while I'm sorting through my thoughts and sifting through the negative ones and nourishing the positive ones...it's not an easy thing to do, and sometimes my head isn't always in a happy place. Since stepping foot off the beautiful and elegant Ms Amsterdam cruise ship back in June...it's been an awkward transition...it's been what I will call a culture shock...I have experienced intense fluctuations of emotions...struggles with or without happiness.

I am happiest and feel most potent when I am in my element and being my true authentic self....i crave to make a difference in this world; an impact on lives and people who want to make a positive change. I feel so appreciative for people who have been in my life for a long period of time or even just for a glimpse. I know people are placed in your life for certain very important reasons. I prefer to surround myself with positive people...win-win situations...loved ones who expect the most out of you to you highest potential and who will hold it to you until you have succeeded with your best.

I know who I am and I'm not afraid to be me. I will not back down.

Here I am...This IS me. Support me if you will...try to bring me down...It's going to bounce right off of me...and really, I'm sure you just need a nice, loving warm hug.
Which I would be happy to grant you. ;)
Life without hugs, laughter or happiness is pointless.
I want to succeed...and I want you to succeed as well.
Do nothing but act to your fullest potential and be an example for others if you want to see change around you.

Shine on and Smile m'loves. You are worth every bit of it. XO